Hello there, loves.
I hope everyone is well.
Sorry I haven't been around very much. I still love my job, but it means I am up by 6am and in bed before 9pm most days and I am just too tired from enjoying my day to check in with you (and myself).
Today is my day off and I celebrating by finally watching Week 5 of my Advanced Tarot class.
I was originally planning on just doing one big traditional spread to try reading the cards, but the second I saw this new spread, I got super excited.
First off, I pulled a Goddess card. And I did it a little differently than I have in the past, but I really liked it and I think it worked out well for me.
So I shuffled my cards in the usual way a couple of times, but it just wasn't feeling right. So I did something which has started feeling really natural to me of late, which is to take all of the cards (face down), and one by one just put them into different piles in any order I choose. Maybe I'll do 3 piles, maybe I want to do 5. I just do what feels natural at the time. Then I just layer over the piles every other card in the deck. In any order. It's not like dealing in poker where you go a certain direction so everyone ends with the same amount, I just lay them as I feel.
Afterwards, I was planning on putting them one on top of each other to create one full deck again. Instead, I decided to merge this with some of our intuition exercises and just hovered my hand over each pile. When I found that I really had a magnet pile that felt awesome, I just turned over the top card, as though that was where I had cut the deck.
So, who came to see me today? A lovely new visitor named Oonagh.
She says "There is no need to hurry or force things to happen. Everything is occurring in perfect timing," which is a really lovely thing to hear.
As you may have noticed, one of my constants is saying that I have all these plans and I need time to get them off the ground and it's going to happen soon...blah blah blah.
But the thing is, that's very true. I want it to happen now, but I realize that now is simply not the time. I cannot set up an online/postal business while I live in temporary housing and I don't know what state (location wise) I'll be in by the end of the year. But I keep freaking out like VeVa was saying in the Week 4 video, I keep thinking I'm a fraud and if I don't do it know people will think I'm all talk. I seriously cannot wait to start, but I have to make do with being in a holding pattern for now.
After that, I started shuffling my Dreaming Way tarot, the usual way. The first card that Jumped out, was The Lovers. As I was trying the Parlour Spread, I wasn't really sure what to do with it. Should I leave it out, as a guiding card? Should I do a different, simple 3 card spread? But, no, this felt right. The center card for me was going to be the Lovers. I am alone a lot of the time and don't really connect romantically with people. But within this past year or so, I've been really lonely. I have been looking for my other half. My ride or die. The person I mentioned previously is not out in a bad way, but there's a time change and different schedules between us. As we didn't want to make it official for fear of ruining things, we kind of let it drift, which is sad to me. So, while not necessarily applicable at this very moment, I am looking and I am hopeful.
So there I am. Me. The Lovers.
I kept shuffling and shuffling and had 2 more pop out, in this order, The Page of Wands and Page of Swords. I used those as my cards 2 and 3.
I shuffled a bunch more with no more jumpers and eventually was ready to pull from the top. I got the Queen of Swords and then the Knight of Swords.
Holy moly.
So let's see here. We've got 1 Major, 4 Court Cards, and 3 Swords.
This is a crazy reading.
I am the Lovers, as stated above.
My past is all about finding things I'm passionate about and getting into that amazing magical head space. I love that and it is pretty true; I get excited about every new thing I learn and my mind goes crazy about all the things I can do with it.
In space number 3, my magic is the Page of Swords. This is also pretty accurate. I have probably [definitely] mentioned before that I am that person that says no to Bullshit. I am uber logical which is a blessing and a curse. It makes it hard for me to connect to people sometimes, but at the same time it is what draws people to me. It is why I can be an important part in people's lives. The people that get it, and need it, are keepers. I don't have a huge group of friends, but the one's I do have, have been with me for over a decade.
What can my Parlour loves help me out with? SUPER CUTTING THROUGH THE SHIT. We are such an awesome support group and I love it. Whenever one of us is down, or not feeling good about ourselves, or a bunch of random awful shit is going down like it was this past week, every single one of us jumps up and says NO, THAT IS BULL, YOU ARE AWESOME AND WE WILL FIX THIS. I find that fucking amazing.
My current lesson? I need to fucking get on the horse. Which I say every time, but this time, paired with Oonagh, I don't feel pressured. My magic is the dreamy logic of the Page. I need to take it to the next level, but do it when it feels right. Feeling pressured to go out and buy all the things, to buy a set up I have no use for and just let it sit here for months until I have time and space is not logical. I have time; but I need to have faith that I will do it.
That's all for now. How did you think I did? How would you read this spread?
**PS I super duper love that the shape of the spread looks like it mimics the Lovers card. It just looks...perfect to me.
Lots of Love and Luck,
Andy <3
