Wands! [Court Card Included]

Hazzah!

Finally!

Let's get to it!

*cue six hour break for poor food choices and bathing*

Ace:
What new creativity do you want to bring into your life?
All of the creativity! Once again, my online store is in it's infancy. I keep getting more and more ideas and practical ways to start it up, which is really cool.

 

I love this woman. So damn sexual and passionate. "The Gift of Passionate Power," you better believe it. Look at her lounging, and just soaking up all that goodness!

Two:
What does holding the world in the palm of your hand mean to you?
Me, living alone or with a good friend, where we create everyday. I want a magical room for spells and for sewing. Making a living, or a profitable hobby out of my crafts.

Three:
What steps can you take to make the above dream a reality?
I keep feeling like I can't do anything while I'm away from home and not making much money, but I guess all the research I've been doing counts as a step towards my dreams. I hope to take physical steps sooner rather than later.

Four:
What can you celebrate RIGHT NOW?
My job! I am enjoying it way more than I thought I would when I first got my assignment and I am super grateful.

I dig these Femmes because, while most decks show a family, or an inner child scenario, this just shows two people who care for each other. Underneath is says "Completion." Maybe you completed the next step in your powerful, passionate journey! Maybe you're just at peace with your bestie and can rest while it's all good. You choose.

Five:
When have you felt you were in competition with other people in your life?
Not often, honestly, which is really nice. Maybe it's because I think with my head more than my heart (Capricorn), that I don't often find myself in competition with others. I definitely get into arguments for the same reason, but I rarely view it as it's them or me.

 

I really like all these cards, because once again, I think they show difference aspects of a conflict. In the Joie de Vivre tarot, you see this random guy with a dragon? on his head facing off against a tree! What? If you look closely, neither one looks particularly angry, just kind of annoyed they have to go through this Again. Like, come on man, are you kidding me? Just let me by! In Femmes, a woman is tied with a pearl chain, and she says "Strife." She doesn't look hurt, just stuck and inconvenienced. Maybe she's trapped herself with her thoughts? Maybe someone she trusted decided to get ahead and leave her in the dust. Then there's Dreaming Way, which I think it the most clear, but also the most silly. Maybe it's the hats, but they just remind me of young boys at a birthday party fighting over a toy or party game. They're all arguing and that guy in the middle looks super exasperated. Again, not angry, just kind of flustered, like, Come on guys! It's MY birthday! Give it!

Six:
When did you last OWN THAT SHIT?
I guess these past few months job hopping around. I was actually thinking about this earlier today; even though I don't currently have a "real" or "adult" job for all the schooling I've done, I feel like I've proven a lot of my naysayers wrong. I've wanted to work for my current company since at least 2010 and at the time I had a lot of toxic professors who didn't believe in me and made that fact known. They said I wouldn't be successful in my field and that I wouldn't be able to work in high end arenas or at this company unless I did everything the way they wanted me to. Instead I took the leap to leave them behind, worked for a number of higher end companies and finally snagged the job I've wanted for years.


Seven:
When was a time you held your ground to get what you wanted out of life?
I guess the above is a pretty good example of that. At the time, it felt like I was folding, like I was proving my awful professors right by leaving their school, but looking back, I knew that they couldn't give me what I wanted, or support me how I needed, so I stood by my goals and won in the end.

I really like this card from Dreaming Way, because instead of it looking like a "King of the Hill" situation like i the other decks, this chick looks like she is POLE VAULTING over her competition. Nope, I'm out! Peace!

Eight:
Do you believe in signs? Have you ever received any powerful ones?
Yes, I definitely do. I'm pretty sure that I have, but I'm honestly in a bit of fuzz right now and can't think of a specific moment. I don't see this as a sign of anything in particular, but I do want to share that I was visited by my spirit animal yesterday. Which is really weird as this specific spirit animal is a Sting Ray. I took VeVa's spirit animal guide Parlour way back when and for my water element, I kept thinking of a sting ray, which I found very strange at the time. I assumed it would be something a little more mainstream(?) like a turtle, or even a mermaid! But a Sting Ray kept coming to me. Then, yesterday, I went to a fancy restaurant that had a huge aquarium inside, and we were seated right by the tank! About halfway through our meal, one of the larger Sting Rays floated on down and laid right next to use for at least 10 minutes. I was so happy and giggly the whole time. He was super cute.

I've pointed this little guy out before. He's just so dang cute! He's taking his shining light and his awesome skills and setting a rocket for success! Things aren't working out? No worries, he'll find his own creative space.

Nine:
When has something taken a lot of effort and fight, but worked out for you in the end?
My job! Again! 

 

I really love guy. Look at everything he's been through! He's got scars, even an eye-patch! But what else does he have? Love and energy shining through his heart; a tree of progress in his belly; and a wicked smile saying he's not done just yet!

Ten:
What cures you of stress? 
This; hanging out, relaxing, taking me time. I am someone that works best when super busy, so that sometimes means I forget to do anything else. I need to be more aware of my body and its limits sometimes.

Note: The Court Cards have a similar meaning throughout the suits.

Page (Novice)
This guy is getting his creative juices flowing. Can't wait to explode with awesome maker energy!
I think I am constantly 'stuck' at the Page stage. I am always planning, but need to work at getting better at doing. I have so many ideas, so many passions, once I start I don't know if I'll ever be able to stop!

 

I really dig all of these guys.  The bunny from Joie de Vivre is ABOUT IT. Fuck someone else throwing him a parade, he IS THE PARADE and he's gonna rock his newest passion! My Femmes lady just says "Catalyst" and is ready to start working! Then there's calm Dreaming Way. She's got water/intuition galore and is super zen. She is alive with thoughts of love.

Knight (Lady)
Make your passion a reality! No one can stop you once you get moving!

Queen (Chatelaine)
This mama is protecting your fire. Let the knight and your projects flourish, the mama will make sure your haters never get near enough to extinguish your flame!
I look up to this lady so much. She is amazing, and willing to help you out anyway she can.

 

I really enjoy that all of the Queens have a major earthy feel. They're all about nurturing and growing your passion so that it can get to it's beautiful conclusion. Even Femmes, which just has two woman speaking softly says, "Friend of Women." While that might not seem all that intriguing, I think the women look like muses and they're discussing your future and the amazing things you're gonna create.

King (Queen)
Man, that project is BOMB! You pulled it off so well and everyone's impressed. You're owning that shit like Beyonce would want you to.


Lots of Love,
Andy <3

Swords [Court Cards Included]

Alrighty guys.

This week has been nutso. Lots of work, lots of fun, TONS of weird dreams. That's right, it didn't stop with the Muppet party from last week. I had FOUR weird dreams in the last four days! And they all interacted with my reality in some way. Like, they weren't my usual acid trip dreams. Anywho, I've made notes and I'll talk about them later if you're very lucky...or unlucky. Depends on how you feel about being trapped in my subconscious.

I've also been applying to more permanent jobs down here, but I've decided to take a break from trying to figure out my online portfolio, and catch up on my tarot! This weekend is my last week of Veronica Varlow's Advanced Tarot and I still haven't even finished writing about the first! Eeek! I doubt I'll be going through the second session like I am this one, but I do want to try out the new spreads we've learned and feel a bit more confident about my readings.

So....LET'S GO

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Ace:
When was a time that you were totally in control? When you were owning everything!
I actually felt really awesome at work a few days ago. We get these special cards when we do a good job with something and I've only been off training for 5 shifts and I have 6 cards! Also a random coworker whom I'd never talked to before said I made their day just watching me do my job because I clearly enjoy it. It was super sweet :)

I'm showing off all these cards, because even though they don't all speak to me like the above idea, I think they're all gorgeous. We've got Dreaming Way, which I honestly didn't like at first. I thought this card was super boring looking. But I recently started seeing the beauty in the sword. The entire hilt looks like it's wire-wrapped, like a beautiful piece of jewelry. I think if you turn it upside down, it looks just like a lovely crystal pendant (which I've just decided I super want to make). Then there's Femmes. She doesn't look like she's celebrating, but she does look gorgeous. The caption says "The Gift of the Mind" and she just looks the definition of poised. The Joie de Vivre rings true to me because this guy is just prancing around with his sword. He just pulled it out the the stone and is in a FUCK YEAH mood. He's dancing, there's streamers, balloons, he's got a fucking cat on his head! This dude is awesome!

Two:
This card is all about indecision. What are you avoiding deciding upon?
Nothing currently, which is kind of cool haha

With Which Sword Shall I Stab a Bitch?

Three:
Speaking of stabbing bitches...
This card is all about heartbreak. Unfortunately. What song reminds you of heartbreak the most?
This might be a weird choice, but Light in Your Eyes by Blessid Union of Souls. I want to cry whenever I hear it. Time of Your Life is another one, but I actually hate that song, whereas I weirdly love Light in Your Eyes.

True, his heart has been stabbed. But he's already got his bandaid ready and is looking away from the swirling darkness, and towards the light.

Four:
Now that the worst has happened, how do you recharge?
This is. I wish I could do it more, but reading the cards and writing about my experiences helps me a lot.

Five:
This card is about a conflict between you and other person. Are you listening, or are you too busy trying to be right?
I'm one of those horrid people who needs to be right. I am upfront about it, but I know in the moment that doesn't help your feelings towards me. Please know I'll calm down and apologize if I know I've gone too far or hurt your feelings in any way.

In Order: Dreaming Way, Le Tarot des Femmes Erotiques, Joie de Vivre

I really like all of these cards because to me they show different aspects of a disagreement.  In Joie de Vivre, it is super clear that someone is maliciously hurting another. The bird woman looks angry and ready to strike while the other is bleeding. Even though the second one is holding a sword, she looks hurt or even taken aback, like, whoa, I thought we were kidding, I thought we were friends. The Femmes is maybe like you're hurting yourself. It says "Defeat of the Mind," and the woman looks like she's hiding away in shame. Maybe she hurt herself. Maybe she knows she hurt someone she cares about. Maybe she's licking her wounds after an offensive attack. Then there's Dreaming Way. Someone looks upset in the background, but the guy in the foreground thinks everything's just peachy. Maybe he's congratulating himself on a win, or maybe he doesn't even realize he won at all; he thinks it's all good not realizing he hurt someone.

Six:
When have you had to leave something painful behind in order to move on to better things?
I know I'm a broken record, but this past year. I've moved on from a lot of things. I actually moved out on what was my one year anniversary of my start, and tomorrow is the anniversary of my middle. I'm really hoping that once I get to the anniversary of the end I'll be healed. Even better is if I don't notice. After everything that happened, even though I constantly remind myself of the bad, I am really happy now. I'm in a different state, with a different job, with different prospects, and I'm doing well. What else could I ask for?

Seven:
Deception. Serious issues. Has anyone ever hidden something from you, and you found out? Did you feel it instinctively?
Yes and yes. Nothing as horrible as some of the stories I've heard, but I've always had pretty good instincts. I always say I'm a good friend, but I'm not the first person you tell your problems to, I'm the last. Generally when people tell someone a problem first off, it's cause they want sympathy or assurance. I am super bad at that and I cut through the bullshit. That being said, when someone is avoiding a topic or a conversation, I generally know what's up. Again, nothing majorly awful has happened to me (knock on wood), but my instincts are usually looking out for me in the tiniest things.

Eight:
This card is the self doubt we face every day. The bad things We tell ourselves. What are some things you like about yourself to combat it?
I like...that I am determined. That I have good friends. I am well trained in my craft and people seem to like it. I am pretty both inside and out (most of the time). I see things through even if it takes time. I am a good friend and I always try.
I really love this card because the woman in it looks like Louise Brooks, the silent film star. On the bottom it says, "Disillusionment," which I thought was a bad thing initially, like disenchantment. But no, it means you're seeing things for what they are, and what they are is AMAZING.

Nine:
"FEAR is Forgetting that Everything is All Right" - Thank you Witchmama.
Is there a time you freaked out over nothing?
Yesterday, actually. I was talking to one of my friends at work and she was working in the sun and wasn't feeling well. I offered to get her water or give her a short break so that she could go inside, but she refused and just kept saying that she hoped she'd be transferred inside soon. A few minutes later, I saw one of our bosses, and while we were talking I mentioned the girl by the cart. I said she told me she wasn't feeling well, and I meant to tell him that I wouldn't mind taking her spot outside. He suddenly go very curt and told me to go see if she needed any water. I got super stressed and thought maybe he thought I was gossiping, or being a brown noser, or trying to make this other girl look bad and was upset for a couple of hours. Later, I saw a different boss and once she saw me, she just said (also very curtly), "Andy. Come with me." I had a knot in my stomach the whole walk because she didn't say anything to me the entire way. I kept having to tell myself to breath, and as I'd just been watching the Swords video before I got to work, I kept trying to remind myself it was probably nothing. Turns out she just needed two extra hands to do something and wasn't into small talk at that moment, because she was pleasant the whole way back. By the end of the day, that first boss even mentioned in front of other coworkers that it was clear I loved my job. I literally was sick all day because of this nonsense in my head! 

Ten:
What helps to pick you up when you're down?
My friends. My cards. Doing things that make me happy :)
I really like this card because while both of my other decks are mad depressing, this bitch is already in her Pick Me Up phase. Underneath her it reads, "End of Delusion." She is smiling so knowingly, that to me it's like, "That's right bitches, playtime is over. You had me for a second, but I am back and better than ever!"

Note: The Court Cards have a similar meaning throughout the suits.

Page (Novice):

The Pages! Ideas! Logic! Bam! Boom!

They may not have started the journey, but they're planning the routes out in their minds.

This guy is my biffle. The meticulous planner who doesn't actually have much follow through. That's okay though, the journey in the mind is pretty sweet.

I love these cards! Joie de Vivre looks so stab happy, like he is ready! Then there's my calm Femme, who is just like, "You stick to your petty little argument, I'll be here looking up scholarly sources like the Credible Hulk I am." Then there's Dreaming Way, who looks like she's contemplating whether stabbing you will help or hurt her cause.  

Pictured: The Credible Hulk

Knight (Lady)
Annnd they're off! The journey has started and they are slashing through some bullshit to get to the end!


Queen (Chatelaine)
Damn. These bitches don't mess around. They are fiercely protecting you from the badness out there as well as the badness within. Don't upset Mama Sword, you will not live for long after.
I definitely relate to this mama most of the time. I try to use my logic for good, and remind those around me that everything is all right, even if I don't always believe it myself.

Look at that evil smirk! She's just daring you to try to mess. She's even using a previous protester as a fashion accessory! Whoa!

King (Queen)
This guy has overcome some shit and he wants you to do the same! Believe in him, and you'll arrive safely at your destination.
I really look up to anyone who reminds me of the King. He's using his experience (in my mind's story, he just finished being the Ten of Swords) and is trying to help those around him either avoid the same situation, or move on after living it.

Please tell me ya'll remember this biddy. Does she even need an introduction??


Lots of Love,
Andy <3

Pick Three: Homework Set 2.5

Very simple assignment. Look through all your cards, and without necessarily looking for the names or meanings, pick 3 that call to you.

I looked through each card in the deck, setting aside all the ones that called to me in a pinch. Then from there, I looked through the actual photos, trying not to look at the name, and picked again until I got my three.

In the end, I actually ended up with four.

And they are........*drumroll*

VII The Chariot "Enjoy the Ride"
XIV Temperance "Love Transforms You"
8 of Pentacles "Apprenticeship"
II The Witch (High Priestess in more traditional decks) "Intuition will Reveal"

  

Now, The Witch was the cutoff. It was going to be just the three above her, but something was telling me not to put her away just yet.

Weirdly enough, I rarely pull any of these cards. I have pulled both the Chariot and Temperance before, but I think it was about two years ago when I first bought this deck. I thought hadn't pulled the 8 of Pentacles, but then I realized I've just never pulled it from this particular deck. This is the card I pulled and made a watercolor out of from my Dreaming Way Tarot.

 

It doesn't look like much, but it did help me remember the card.

After looking at just the three again, I realized that this was basically a reading. I'd just gone over the previous homeworks and learned what the Major Arcana meant so everything was still nice and fresh. 

The Chariot: I'm in control of my life and where I go from here.

Temperance: Balance is key to a happy and fulfilling life. 

8 of Pentacles: Apprenticeship, learning a new craft or skill.

I'm gonna sound like a broken record, but, I'm leaving soon to start a brand new job that I've been working towards for years. I'm finally getting to go where I want to go. And I keep referring to this new job as a paid vacation to my friends because the company is open basically 24/7 and I'm only going to work 40 hours a week. While I'm down there I have to learn how to function with only half of my week planned. Will I use my free time actually relaxing, or will I get another job like I've been thinking about? In my last post, when I went over the Temperance card, I said my perfect balance has more work than play. Maybe I'll learn to relax in the coming months; who knows? :)

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Now. When I was mulling over the best way to pick three cards, and the fact that it should be based on artwork, not technically meaning, I realized that I now own three decks.

My Main deck is Le Tarot Des Femmes Erotiques, with whom I've bonded greatly. 

My second is The Dreaming Way Tarot, with whom I've got an amiable relationship. 

And my third and newest deck is the Joie De Vivre tarot, which I just picked up on Monday on my last day of vacation! I opened her tonight specifically so I could do this...

I was going to discard immediate meanings, and pick one card from each deck so that I could see what was currently calling me without worrying about the artwork because they would all be different.

And THAT'S why I was holding on to my Witchy mama. She wasn't in my three, because she was my one; my individual.

I opened Joie de Vivre after setting aside my Femmes, and then looked through Dreaming Way.

Joie De Vivre,      Le Tarot Des Femmes Erotiques,      Dreaming Way

And who's that I see? Why, it's The High Priestess, the 'normal' equivalent to my Witch. And next? The Magician, of course!

Looks like I've got my two mystical parents looking over me this late night. I've got all the skills and drive I need to dance my way towards my heart's desire.

Have a lovely night,

Andy <3

Communing with Cards: Homework Set 2

*All questions courtesy of Veronica Varlow's Tarot Intensive*

13. Death
Did you have any experiences that felt like death, but were actually new beginnings?
I think all endings feel that way. A lot of people, including myself, hate change and it's scary! I had a relationship change a while back and I'm still in the process of figuring out how to make my life more full and rich.

14. Temperance
What would be an ideal balance in your life?
I feel like balance isn't always 50/50, and people forget that. I definitely need more work than play. I often forget to balance the two, and play goes completely away. I just need to remind myself to add it in, as having some is important and it would minimize stress without making me feel off kilter.

15. The Devil
What did you do to move past negative obsessions? What helped you move on?
I think that I am sometimes too logical. I know, in my heart, that I am an addictive personality, so I know right off the bat not to try things or start something, or I will be hooked. So I try in general to nip that type of thing in the bud. However, when it comes to friends and relationships, I do sometimes get into an unhealthy situation and my friends and past experiences are what helps me out of it.

16. The Tower
Has something fundamental crashed down around you, only for you to realize it was for the best in the long run?
Yes, the same relationship that I referred to with the Death card. It impacted, and still is impacting my life, but it is good that it happened early on, when my life is so fluid, rather than it happening later. I'm still recovering, but I realize that I'm lucky. And the friends that I mentioned in the Devil are what and who are constantly helping me to move forward.

17. The Star
What do you hope for in the future? What are some tricks to keep from giving up on your dreams?
I want to run my own company one day selling my crafts and potions and scrubs. I keep working for that time, and even when it looks like it's far away, I just remind myself that I am working towards getting the time and money I need to get started.

18. The Moon
What are the last 3 dreams you remember having? What mysteries lie in your subconscious?
Haha welllll my dreams that aren't prophetic are always crazy fever dreams. This is gonna be a long ass answer, because my dreams are always weirdly detailed...hold up
-Last night, me and my friend we talking about somehow being addicted to Candy? Or not knowing why people craved it? I don't know, why but I guess I thought the answer was in the Mandy Moore song, Candy? Because I was like, you know, like Candy. And I started singing the chorus to him; not belting it out, just kind of quietly singing him the lyrics like ya do. Then he told me I was  good singer.....
 -Thursday night, I dreamt that I was going to a hotel with one of my old friends from college. It was super busy because there was a convention going on and we didn't know it. We ended up getting separated and I remember our room number was something like 9450-something something. When I got lost trying to find the room, I ended up alllll the way down the hall at 9458-something something so I had to back track. I found my room and then I was apparently going to the convention? Which had shooting games/exhibitions? I've never fired a gun before, by the way. Everyone was dressed in white from head to toe in what looked like radioactive suits, except for me and a different friend from high school. We were wearing that, but with Kevlar vests over them. We were shooting at each other, through crowds, trying to hit each other only on the vests. We each hit each other in the back of the pants leg, leaving holes, but no injuries. Then I realize he was wearing one of my pairs of pants and that I had just ruined two pairs. And yes, that was my dream.
-I know I've had a dream just as crazy as the one just listed within the last month or so, but I can't remember it. Besides that, there was a semi normal dream I recorded in my Good Morning post from May.
Enjoy my nutty subconscious, guys.

19. The Sun
What makes you light up?
Redundant at this point, but creating. It makes me so much happier than anything else.
*as a side note, I don't normally pull this card, and I did during Veronica's Tuesday Instagram reading. Horray for a shining week!

20. Judgment (Rebirth)
What are your A-Ha moments? What are you most proud of so far?
I'm proud of the fact that I jumped ship my senior year of college to follow my heart and change majors during my last semester. That was a big a-ha moment; I just knew I wouldn't be happy if I followed through with that degree. Now I'm proud that even though it's taken a few extra years, I have jobs in my chosen field and I enjoy them :)

21. The World
Name 3 things you are proud of. You got this.
- I'm proud that I went on a spontanious trip across the country
- I've started the bones of my online store. Even though I'm not currently selling what I want, I can use this to figure out how to best work the online platform, shipping and pricing.
- I got accepted into a small working program for a company I've been trying to work with for years and I'm flying down there in 2 weeks!

Love always,
Andy <3

Communing with Cards: Homework Set 1

*All questions courtesy of Veronica Varlow's Tarot Intensive*

0. The Fool
When was the last time you threw yourself into something new and said, 'fuck it'?
It was about a week or two ago, right around this assignment started! I had 3 weeks to kill and no plans so I decided to run off to another coast and see if I could make a life out here. To be determined.

1. The Magician
Have you ever had a 'supernatural' experience?
I feel like I have...but I can't remember?
What is your own form of magic?
Making things; I love to create. I also am very intuitive and people tend to share intimate things with me.

2. The High Priestess (The Witch)
What do you feel you may have been in a past life? What are magical mysteries you have yet to discover?
In one of Veronica's previous classes, we took a quiz about who we may have been in our past lives. I may have been a voodoo woman as I love to create and solve problems through making things with nature.
Do you attach anyone specific to this card?
As Veronica cultivates the magic in all of us, I would have to say she is our High Priestess.

3. The Empress (The Goddess)
When was the last time you let yourself create without judgment?
It's been a really long time, sadly. I've been creating and enjoying my creations, but the last time I think I made something without judgment was when I was painting. I would love to work on that more.

4. The Emperor (The Abbess)
What can you benefit from being more scheduled? What can you schedule now to make things easier for you later?
I can/should schedule a lot of things. I am a person who is most productive when there is a deadline, more specifically, a every tight deadline and when I'm already bombarded with 18 other projects. I need to be busy to do things, otherwise I am a sloth. I always try to schedule non-work things into a tight group so I can trick myself into being productive...but it has yet to work. I need some Dom in my life.

5. The Hierophant (The Shaman)
What do you need a teacher for? What can you teach others?
Creating everything! I never want to stop learning how to improve myself in that aspect and learn from others, but I think it's one of the things I can teach as well.

6. The Lovers
Who is that person in your life who is truly ride or die?
No one currently. I have amazing friends, but no one that I would completely associate that with.

7. The Chariot
How can you be more 'in the driver's seat' of your own life?
I think I am already pretty in control of my life. I just need to make the effort to do what I want to do, rather than what I think I should.

8 (or 11). Strength
When have you shown inner strength and overcome obstacles in your way?
The first thing that comes to mind is my previous job. I really didn't like it when I first started and was considering quitting but made myself power through and ended up having a really rewarding experience.

9. The Hermit
The Hermit wants you to disconnect with the world so you can connect with yourself. What do you do to meditate and create peace of mind?
This card is always hidden for me. I rarely pull the hermit; I feel like in general I am fairly introspective so I don't usually need a reminder to look inside myself for calm and peace. However; I have started an unedited journal lately to help keep track of my thoughts and also to help in connection to writing this blog.

10. The Wheel of Fortune (The Wheel)
When has your luck suddenly changed for the better?
My luck (and life) has been going through a lot of changes recently. I am currently on a vacation I wouldn't have imaged 2 months ago and am on my way to move to a brand new and tropical state for a job I have been trying to land for years!

11 (or 8). Justice
What dream have you been working towards? Is there something more you can be doing?
There's always something more I could be doing! Like I said above, I work best when I'm already busy so right now I'm not doing much, but I am trying to write more, journal and organize my thoughts and what I want.

12. The Hanged Man (The Fairy)
What have you had blinders on for? What could you use a new perspective on?
 I like to think I rarely have on blinders. I like to try to see things from every logical angle. But that right there may be the rub, I need to try to think more with my feelings sometimes.